l o v e is f o r e v e r

darkcldgrl @ 2009-04-27T21:31:00

2009-04-28T01:31:53Z

darkcldgrl @ 2009-01-28T22:26:00

2009-01-29T03:26:51Z

;(

darkcldgrl @ 2009-01-28T21:24:00

2009-01-29T02:24:26Z

WHAT THE FUCK IS THE POINT OF HAVING A CAR IF I CAN"T FUCKING DRIVE IT!!!!!!!

darkcldgrl @ 2009-01-04T10:28:00

2009-01-04T15:28:44Z

Sometimes I wish I could just die....

darkcldgrl @ 2008-12-25T18:28:00

2008-12-25T23:28:07Z

Merry Christmas everyone. Happy holidays!

darkcldgrl @ 2008-11-11T09:04:00

2008-11-11T14:06:00Z

I wish I could be 2 again. Not have all these responsibilities and obligations. Im so tired, its gettin harder and harder for me to wake up in the morning. This coffee sucks also so it just makes the day suck even more. At least I dont have school tomorrow :D. Thanksgiving is coming which means shoppingggg :D Very excited for that... 6 more weeks of school... super excited for that one :D

Happy Belated Birthday My Tinkers! I love you!

darkcldgrl @ 2008-10-27T20:53:00

2008-10-28T00:58:24Z

4 days to Halloween and no candy is found in this house. Im really disappointed...

Another weekend with my babe.. <3

BIRFDAY

2008-09-23T13:34:40Z

Just want to write a quick entry to wish Missss Sheepppyyyy a very happpy belated birthday! I hope you have fun and enjoyed your weekend!!!

Realize? .... did someone do a typo or is it me?

2008-07-11T01:40:03Z

1. I've come to realise that my butt: isn't as good as it could be.

2. I've come to realise that when I talk: I don't think, and loose track of myself.

3. I've come to realise that if I love someone: I start fights to see how much they actually care.

4. I've come to realise that I need: let life takes its course and guide me.

5. I've come to realise that I've lost: all control of my life.

6. I've come to realise that I hate it when: he doesn't show affection

7. I've come to realise that if I'm drunk: im probably throwing up and sleeping

8. I've come to realise that money: will always be a never-ending problem.

9. I've come to realise that my mother: really does love my dad

10. I've come to realise that I'll probably always be: insecure.

11. I've come to realise that I love: Nelson T. Pavao

12. I've come to realise that the last time I cried was: couple nights ago

13. I've come to realise that my cell phone: proves to me how I have no friends.. and no one ever calls.

14. I've come to realise that when I wake up in the morning: I wish he was there....

15. I've come to realise that before I go to sleep at night: i don't have time to think about anything because I'm practically asleep by the time I get in bed.

16. I've come to realise that right now I am thinking about: money......bills

17. I've come to realise that babies: really aren't meant for me.

18. I've come to realise that when I get on livejournal: im to lazy to type

19. I've come to realise that today I will: probably fall asleep in 30 seconds...

20. I've come to realise that tonight I will: have a mood swing.

21. I've come to realise that tomorrow I will: wake up early as usual

22. I've come to realise that I really want to: go back in time

23. I've come to realise that who is most likely to repost this is: no one reads this.

24. I've come to realise relationships: are what makes the world go round.

25. I've come to realise love: is complicated

26. I've come to realise my best guy friend: is also my love

27. I've come to realise my best girl friend: is leaving soon for vaca

28. I've come to realise food: is sooooo yummmmyyyy.... hmmm chocolateee

29. I've come to realise that when I'm a girlfriend: I'm probably the worst one at it.

30. I've come to realise girls and boys: are all from the same root of evil... damn eve for eating the apple.

31. I've come to realise over the summer: I wont accomplish nothing and just wish my life away.

32. I've come to realise heartbreak: are worse than a scrapped knee

I really wish I could go away.

2008-07-10T01:21:50Z

Im sorry for getting in the way of your "you time", do whatever you want to do.

darkcldgrl @ 2008-07-03T21:59:00

2008-07-04T01:59:34Z

So its the thursday before the holiday.. Im home .. everyone seems to have gone out. No one seems to care it seems.

I guess im the pathetic one.

stub day!

2008-06-25T15:26:20Z

Not really bored at work but i just dont want to work. Haha.. peolpe keep walking by and looking at what I am doing .. oh well. I wonder if maybe i can stop by his house for a lil while today. Its been so boring at my house, i can't stand it. Plus my pops seems like hes been down for a while.. but its like I dont want to leave him alone but then again I dont want to be there when hes tehre. It really blows. I think I might want to clean out my room today or tomorrow give it a real nice clean, like what Marcia did. throw out crap that i really dont need to keep thats just wasting space. I should find stuff to sell hahahahaa.. im such a cheap bastard.. acutaly i haven't been that cheap lately. Ive been blowing money left and right. On gifts and stuff.

Now my mom is yelling at me because my brother has money isseus and he doens't know how to save money. Its funny how she yells at me.. I told her to call him but she doesn't want to do it when shes at work cuz this other chick is there at work and shes chop so yeah.. I wish my brother would learn to stop wasting so much. I guess we all seem to have money problems. the thing is ava complains that his problem is the M3 and that he needs to get rid of it. I hate that. Its like listen hes only going ot be young once and if he found a good deal than ithink she should shut up and let him enjoy it. she doens't complain when he takes it out when they go out. the problem is she likes to go out and everyime they go out my brother pays all the time. We went out to tiesto and shes like drinking like crazy and my brother was the one that wasted all the money she didn't pay for shit. its like wtf. When we go to new york she will run out of money and my brother will pay for it. I swear hes stupid.

Anyways Alexa is annoying, but i like her idea, she is thinking about going to school in teh day time so she will only start work around 1 and i leave at 3 so I will bearly get to see her annoyingness which might be a good thing, but i think her a marco might be gettin serious but w/e thats her problem not mine. She doesn't understand that she probably wont be able to surive only working 24 a week and paying 400 a month for school ,and she wnats to move out? and get a new car? right.. think again.

im really wondering about something, I wish it was 3 already but ugh. I dont knwo why it bothers me but it does.. poop. I should probably get back to work and close this before someone comes on thsi pc. eah im gonna go almost got caught..!!!! maybe ill post later :)

darkcldgrl @ 2008-05-24T13:45:00

2008-05-24T17:45:54Z

ughhhh. I haven't posted in a while.... :(

darkcldgrl @ 2008-01-21T15:29:00

2008-01-21T20:32:51Z

School starts tomorrow. I am really really not ready at all.

darkcldgrl @ 2008-01-10T20:56:00

2008-01-11T01:57:08Z

You know ur poor when u can't afford a pair of 20$ shoes at target that you absolustly love and want! :(

darkcldgrl @ 2008-01-08T19:18:00

2008-01-09T00:30:23Z

I think I need to make a resolution to learn to update this more often cuz I really dont. I dont know why. I just get lost in other things or I just get so lost with the tv and I can't look away. I really do love tv. School starts again in the next few weeks. I hate this shit. I still dont know what my major should be.

My grama is leaving after being here for 4 months.. she hates it here lol I really dont want her to go but I know she wil lbe alot happier there so I guess I am lettin thsi slide.

ha! I have a date this friday with buttmunch.. I was cleaning out my closet today and realized that I bought a dress ofr our anniversary a few ... months ago and that i never got to wear it, so I have decided that I will wear it friday ... now I just need a freakin coat ugh! Gay! hmmm I guess ill have to work on that one for the mean time.

I think my mom just got home so i guess im gonna go and talk to her for a bit..... u know how it is. .... Ok that wasnt here, but we are going to my aunts to eat and have a "last super" for my grama. Well Ill chat later... ..hopefully

darkcldgrl @ 2007-12-12T23:00:00

2007-12-13T04:01:29Z

Went shopping with Marcia... its was pretty interesting actully. but now I am too tired to post so its bed time for me!

I dont like ....

2007-12-12T00:29:41Z

this time of the year. I have way too much going on with school and finals and presents and just everything else that it makes me so much more stressed out then I am normally. Ahhhh I gotta go study and do some xmas cards before the day ends :( tootles!

darkcldgrl @ 2007-11-28T22:36:00

2007-11-29T03:37:03Z

Its sad when you can't make the one person u truly care about happy. Oh well.

Nelsons Bday

2007-11-11T07:19:56Z

It was nelson's bday on friday and I will have to say everything went smoothly and he liked all his presents and he got to play games w/o any bitchin from me.... I adore him and im glad to see him happy, makes me happy. Ima go read some more of this book and then hit the sheets. Ill post more later about this weekend

Happy birthday my darling Angel. I love you.

darkcldgrl @ 2007-11-03T00:09:00

2007-11-03T04:09:56Z

You know those people who are constantly tryin to push other people away from them? .... I think im one of them.

darkcldgrl @ 2007-10-24T21:30:00

2007-10-25T01:43:15Z

My dad has been wanting to buy this accordion for the longest of time and now im starting to wonder If i should just save up some money and give it to him so he can use it as a down payment and then save up some money to give to my mom or what. I am really not sure on what to do at all. its better then buying them gifts that are aim less and dont do much.
I was in the shower and I started to think about how much we take life for granted and i guess society really upsets me. I guess im just in one of those moods right now. I been working on a study guide for my exam on Monday. I was hoping that sunday would be my study day since Nelson will probably be paintballin' until about 3ish I could enjoy the morning and most of the day just studying.. i found out were going to at eat my uncles HOW GAY! I really want and need to do well in this since there only 2 exams per semester and 1 or 2 papers. I hate that. Man, I guess ill be studying over the entire weekend and leaving early. I was really hoping for it to be quite day until later on in the afternoon. I hope this weekend turns out pretty well. We have some plans for a maze? and Lake. Who knows. I guess im going to go play another round of MAHJONG and then nap.

I think I need to update my list again. I REALLY need to start shopping for people. Im not getting everyone something this year, I realized that its pure bullshit. So no more of that.

darkcldgrl @ 2007-10-17T22:26:00

2007-10-18T02:29:36Z

i gues post from my phone dont seem to work. WTF is up wit that shit. I know i posted about something that was on my mind earlier this week and now.. its totally gone.
We talked about going to cold stone creamery this weekend and I really want to I want to try their ice cream, but now I wanna cook. I have this sudden urge to cook and bake. I really want to make chocolate molten cake this weekend or at least try to bake something sweet. I dont know. Im getting restless and I have to study so im gonna head out and ponder on what I can do this week.

Why Do I have to cry

2007-09-20T02:12:27Z

I posted earlier.... i guess that didn't go through.. oh welll

Honestly no one understands me. At all. No one understands how I feel. Sometimes I wish we would move back to portugal. I dont even care anymore about loosing anyone cuz honestly whats the point. I dont wanna with anyone anymore. I dont want a relationship. I want to be alone at least if Im down I can just blame it on myself and not bring my problems upon anyone else. No one has to pretend that they care about me, pretend to be there. It has nothing with asking for fuckin premission, it has to do wit me and feeling like u would rather spend time with other people then me. If ur sick and tired of just fuckin tell me. I dont wan't to waste anyones time. I remember when it was new... you actually care when I cried and you would actually want to make things better and find out whats wrong. You were there for me. ud drive by my house and now. Nothing. I can cry all I want and I just get ridiculed? and you walk away.

I dont want that.

Why Do I have to cry

2007-09-20T02:06:53Z